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A bit over a week before November I stupidly reactivated my Nanowrimo account in the way one would dangle food in front of a man dying of thirst - I thought that the deadlines and the pretty Flash graphs and the neurotic comparisons of word counts with fellow writers would goad me into continuing WH or finally starting that rewrite I keep thinking of.

It's nearly 10 days in now and I haven't written a single thing. I think it's safe to say that I won't be able to catch up now even if I tried, so I'm giving up for this year. The conditions just aren't right - last year I was able to sneak some writing time in the office, and this time around I have fairly important manuals I need to work on and preferably finish before the holidays. I wonder why I can't just hurl myself headlong into the crush like everyone else, and I balk at the notion that I'd only be word-vomiting for a pairing that I'd normally handle with the utmost care.

So I think... I wouldn't be having this problem if I'd decided to continue either of my previous Nano projects. I didn't have real standards for them and I could ramble and TL;DR to my heart's content. But that kind of rough approach just won't work for WH - I've always been careful with how I write scenes, and TL;DR-ing only to slice out huge parts from the final draft will be heartbreaking. I'll find another way to deal with the problem of my unfinished projects although a rewrite is looking more and more likely yet again sob I vaguely remember getting this dilemma months ago why am I thinking about it again nooow

Forgive me if I don't respond to Nanowrimo update posts. Seeing other people doing well is making me feel guilty and disappointed in myself even as I get great relief at the thought that I wouldn't have put up with that grueling schedule this year, so I've been avoiding your entries like the plague. >:

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I finally finished it. B|

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1.1. My legs can scarce support my body. Standing for six hours is not a recommended activity. Enrollment wasn't difficult, though, and I've become so used to the hassle of undergrad enrollment at my university that only taking two hours for graduate studies enrollment still makes me feel like I was involved in some sort of miracle. Why, only three years ago, I spent two weeks trying to enroll! What made me stand another two hours, however, was getting both my IDs. The first one was not bad -- fifteen minutes, and I was done! Zip zip. The alumni ID, I regret going for forever. (But alas, I like hoarding IDs. To date, I have six. One day I shall get post office and TIN and Voters IDs. And a driver's license. And an NBI card.)

So the alumni office was on the eight floor of the hospital, on the other side of the campus, and accessible only through one of two elevators that reached up to the seventh floor. So I walked, trekked, climbed, got lost, and then was given this paper. "Go back from whence you came!" she said, "And pay the amount due! And then come back here and show me the receipt." asdfghjk Other side of the campus just to pay two dollars worth of ID cost. The line took half an hour, and they were threatening on close before my turn, what the bloody hell.

Commuting home was terrible, mostly because of bad decisions made and overall general unluckiness. So there, six hours on my feet and then some in the kind of humid, wet weather that kills me dead. I think my mom was amused at how I was asleep before she even managed to roll the car out of the parking lot when I finally got to her office.

1.2. I was kind of baffled and a little amused at how many parents were in the lines with me. Really, sirs and madames, it is better if you let the kids enroll by themselves. Let them learn pain, and they shall grow wiser for it. : |

1.3. On a bright note, I saw driftrip. ♥

2. My schedule for next semester is the same as the previous semester. Wednesday evenings, Saturday mornings. They might actually use all three hours for Saturday! I fervently hope that this semester will be better than the last, or it'll break my heart.

3. Shit son, I haven't had any energy since the weekend. No motivaaaaaaaation.

4. Re: Sherlock Holmes 2009: In light of the third trailer, I have decided that this movie would be less painful for me if I just considered it a complete AU. : | Because I love and hate it at the same time and if I facepalm any more, I might break my nose.

5. I finished reading the Assassin's Apprentice by Robin Hobb, recommended by triggerbone-san. It's really nice, even if it makes me fear for the characters' lives most of the time. I was always like NO, BURRICH! this or AAAA VERITY! that and WAIT, IS HE? OR ISN'T HE?! etc etc. Reading on the second book, Royal Assassin now and so far, I like it a lot, too. My favorite is Burrich! Shut up. : |

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HI GUYS, I AM BACK FROM SINGAPORE! Missed you all very much! And I am lazy to post proper updates, but I have most of it written down! /will scan it, mark my words

Singapore was niiiiiiiiiiice. ♥ I will need to come back there, yes yes, om nom nom nom. I think I gained ten thousand pounds from the awesome food hahaha chicken riiiiiiiiiice. Ion dessertsss.

Maaan, I miss the clean air and easy commute already. And Kinokuniya stole my money somehow. I don't even have shelf space for a single book !! jahskjas. The flight back was amazing, even if our original one got canceled. Singapore Airlines~~ ♥

B)

There, we met Luvi, Chris, KB, Ang, Chrissie, Jane, Regina, and then all of them together. Thanks, guys. 8DDDD It was amazing to meet you all. Not sorry for groping, though.

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